Shadowing Regrets

Sometimes the hardest truth

Is the one that shadows us forever

The one defines each path we take

That seals off plans and illusions

And the one we dream to whisk away

The one we seek to overcome in hopes

In aspirations sugar coated by perhaps

And what ifs.

Sometimes we wish to gaze in the future

But can only be tormented by the past

And today becomes a simple silent murmur

A vessel that carries a piece of us away

A piece of youth and a piece of life

A piece of pain and a piece of strife

Until there’s nothing left.

Here we lay lost inside

Slaves to only one action- forward

Deemed worthy by our efforts to haul

Our own shattered hearts and shards of memories

To a new awakening- a world recreated within

Without the anguish of self inflicted regret

Hoping one day to receive genuine reason to live. 

Heartbreak's Hold

There’s a deep welling ache within me

That with each rising hour inside spins me-

Catapulting my hope to a morrow unknown

Leaving me within misery – all alone.

I blame no one but myself- of course

To follow my heart although my mind implored

To let down my guard and open the gate.

Wounded again by another ingrate.

The wind carries promises but also demise

It floats with my past and the tears I’ve cried

It reminds me of how things always change

That life, my plans will always rearrange

Twisted paths of agony now I tread, now I saunter

For ignoring all signs ahead- for desiring to flaunter

What would suit me only in angelical dreams-

But forever exceed my grasp by living means.

Oh, I clothe myself with misery

As fallen leaves clothe each grave.

I cannot deem myself worthy of tomorrow

Or of finding a day without sorrow-

For to this heartbreak I am slave.